Francisca...my 8 years old niece who is so cutesy.
She's my cousin (2yrs older) daughter. Imagine...my cousin is like 29 this year and she has a 8 years old daughter and a 1.5 years old daughter...so wat am I doing here?
Francisca is so cute. Love her boldness Love her sweet look and she's so attached to me. Yupz, she enjoy being carried by me. See me only will stretch out her arms for me to carry her up (she's heavy k?)
Can't help want to carry her home. I like kids and I want to have kids, BUT that got to wait. Not so soon...but I hope is soon. Dezrie, you got the hint? =)
Dezrie is mature and he is so ever ready to settle down. And both of us can think along the same line. Hopefully in the near future, I will be beginning to look for HDB, and Rings, and Banquet venue, and ROM dates and bridal dress...well you got the idea.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
he's so into me...
he has start to think so far in the future.
And he even specially took time off his work and met me juz for lunch. How sweet it that. And he couldn't let go of my hands. He keep telling me my hands felt so comfy in his and they fitted like a glove (his hands and mine are same size)
he's planning to get a 7 seater car...he told me he used only think abt a small car cos he's single but now he's found me, he want a 7 seater for the whole family, his parents, his sister and her husband and of cos with me. With a 7 seater, it is also because of our own family, with kids...
Housing...he said let's get HDB flat first, claim whatever we can from HDB then we get a private property. And he wants to stay with his parents!!! #$?!%$
I've learnt my lesson, so I juz kept quiet. I din really wan to stay with parents cos I prefer our own space but I dun mind staying near them. Wait and see. I dun wan to suggest and comment too much until it is happening.
Someone told me dun put your hopes too high up yet which I think is pretty true. I'm not giving my 100% to him yet... not if things dun work out the way we want, I would have got hurt even deeper. But I know he's so into me, I juz can take a step at a time.
I miss him.
And he even specially took time off his work and met me juz for lunch. How sweet it that. And he couldn't let go of my hands. He keep telling me my hands felt so comfy in his and they fitted like a glove (his hands and mine are same size)
he's planning to get a 7 seater car...he told me he used only think abt a small car cos he's single but now he's found me, he want a 7 seater for the whole family, his parents, his sister and her husband and of cos with me. With a 7 seater, it is also because of our own family, with kids...
Housing...he said let's get HDB flat first, claim whatever we can from HDB then we get a private property. And he wants to stay with his parents!!! #$?!%$
I've learnt my lesson, so I juz kept quiet. I din really wan to stay with parents cos I prefer our own space but I dun mind staying near them. Wait and see. I dun wan to suggest and comment too much until it is happening.
Someone told me dun put your hopes too high up yet which I think is pretty true. I'm not giving my 100% to him yet... not if things dun work out the way we want, I would have got hurt even deeper. But I know he's so into me, I juz can take a step at a time.
I miss him.
Could it be a sign?
My grandfather's brother juz passed away last nite and on Sunday the whole family will have to attend the 出兵 which we will not be able to go for the RC local shopping tour.
And he is getting so prepared to be "interviewed" and to meet my family. I can sense the disappointment in him but this kind of thing, is really unforeseen.
Two months ago, this grandfather's brother's wife passed away and now he passed away. Well they are after all, well in their advance age and staying in a home, so maybe is a good way to let go.
As for him, I dunno whether is it God's way of telling me... ...to reconsider, or to put us through a trial. I am not sure of it myself also. He is so thankful to me for sticking by him thru his difficult times, so I dunno is it that he really love me or I am juz a kind of emotion and mental support for him. Does he know wat is love? or he juz want a companion? But he can be sweet, tells me want me to go thru the good times with him, not only the bad times.
He offer the use of his place whenever I got meeting over at that side of Hougang. He asked me to pop by for dinner, rest, wait for him to reach home and go for the mtg. And he said his mum will treat her daughter-in-law better than her own son. haha. He has a warm family and that is also wat I yeaned for.
I really dunno wat am I thinking, should I juz go when he's doing better? Or would I want be with him for the rest of my life? I know he will be able to take good care of me, take good care of our families...
And he is getting so prepared to be "interviewed" and to meet my family. I can sense the disappointment in him but this kind of thing, is really unforeseen.
Two months ago, this grandfather's brother's wife passed away and now he passed away. Well they are after all, well in their advance age and staying in a home, so maybe is a good way to let go.
As for him, I dunno whether is it God's way of telling me... ...to reconsider, or to put us through a trial. I am not sure of it myself also. He is so thankful to me for sticking by him thru his difficult times, so I dunno is it that he really love me or I am juz a kind of emotion and mental support for him. Does he know wat is love? or he juz want a companion? But he can be sweet, tells me want me to go thru the good times with him, not only the bad times.
He offer the use of his place whenever I got meeting over at that side of Hougang. He asked me to pop by for dinner, rest, wait for him to reach home and go for the mtg. And he said his mum will treat her daughter-in-law better than her own son. haha. He has a warm family and that is also wat I yeaned for.
I really dunno wat am I thinking, should I juz go when he's doing better? Or would I want be with him for the rest of my life? I know he will be able to take good care of me, take good care of our families...
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Happy Happy
I think I am happy
He's so sweet. on his facebook, he wrote a lot of sweet things.
Ha. But I got to teach him from scratch how to hold hands, how to hug, how to kiss.
Oh well. At least I know this guy is really an innocent one. Evreything also dunno. So I no need worried abt other things also. Juz guide him on the basic things first.
Good,now I can do things my way.
His friends and his relatives are so excited for him. Keep asking when is he going to bring me to meet them, or when are we getting married. (Duh we are barely a month into the r/s)
I miss him.
This Sunday he will be meeting my family. Cos we going to join the local tour organised by the RC. My mum, my sis, my grandmother, my aunt, my young cousin, my second aunt and her husband, my fifth aunt and her friend...yes these are the closer ones to me.
He told me he will do well for the "interview" if he's granted one.
I guess mum will be able to talk to him too since they were from the same line before.
I hope evrything goes well. He's the first (or the only one) of all my other bf to meet my family other than the immiediate ones (mum and sis).
Am I ready to take this big leap?
He's so sweet. on his facebook, he wrote a lot of sweet things.
Ha. But I got to teach him from scratch how to hold hands, how to hug, how to kiss.
Oh well. At least I know this guy is really an innocent one. Evreything also dunno. So I no need worried abt other things also. Juz guide him on the basic things first.
Good,now I can do things my way.
His friends and his relatives are so excited for him. Keep asking when is he going to bring me to meet them, or when are we getting married. (Duh we are barely a month into the r/s)
I miss him.
This Sunday he will be meeting my family. Cos we going to join the local tour organised by the RC. My mum, my sis, my grandmother, my aunt, my young cousin, my second aunt and her husband, my fifth aunt and her friend...yes these are the closer ones to me.
He told me he will do well for the "interview" if he's granted one.
I guess mum will be able to talk to him too since they were from the same line before.
I hope evrything goes well. He's the first (or the only one) of all my other bf to meet my family other than the immiediate ones (mum and sis).
Am I ready to take this big leap?
Monday, January 25, 2010
Am I or am I not
In love with you?
I do miss you a lot, esp when I dun receive your sms or call. I can't help but worry. BUT I dunno whether am I in love with you.
Or that will I be loving you 100%
I am juz so confuse, so scare...
I dunno whether are you loving me 100% too.
I wan meet you everyday, I enjoy being with you. I am so comfortable talking to you. I wan to hear you everyday, I wan to see your sms everyday. Is this love?
Or am I juz seeking someone to be with me always.
You have not officially ask me thru your mouth, juz over msn.
I'm waiting for a day that we could call it our "anniversary".
I know you are still learning. I dunno will I get a ring from you. I dunno if you know how to hold my hands, or hold me close in your arms.
Will you give me a ring?
I could only walk a step at a time.
I do miss you a lot, esp when I dun receive your sms or call. I can't help but worry. BUT I dunno whether am I in love with you.
Or that will I be loving you 100%
I am juz so confuse, so scare...
I dunno whether are you loving me 100% too.
I wan meet you everyday, I enjoy being with you. I am so comfortable talking to you. I wan to hear you everyday, I wan to see your sms everyday. Is this love?
Or am I juz seeking someone to be with me always.
You have not officially ask me thru your mouth, juz over msn.
I'm waiting for a day that we could call it our "anniversary".
I know you are still learning. I dunno will I get a ring from you. I dunno if you know how to hold my hands, or hold me close in your arms.
Will you give me a ring?
I could only walk a step at a time.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
few more hours...
counting down... 2 more hours
to meeting you...
I'm missing you
wonder wat will the reaction be? will it be awarkward? or will it be like our usual?
Having butterflies in my stomach. Will we be holding hands? will we hug? Will I be able to feel safe and secure in his arms?
Yes. he admitted it, after I guided him to ask that question. Such a blockhead.
Yet I am confuse. Half-half feeling. Dunno how to answer to Pst and CGL but yet happy that I am dating. he's shorter than me. Will I be able to accept?
Dun wan think anything else, dun wan talk abt the future. Juz see how things go first. Taking one step at a time.
I so much wan to plan a wedding, my own wedding. so much wan to go see furniture, so much wan go and view flats, so much wan go try wedding gowns, so much wan go food tasting, so much wan go hotel booking, so much wan go take photo shoots with him, so much wan go shop for our rings. Slowly bah.
I dunno how to tell others...we decided not to annouce yet, if they find out, we are not going to hide either. Got to start discussing how are we going to react infront of the other volunteers and infront of my colleagues? Got to know how to seperate work and personal. And the issue of the committee, can I still continue to take that committee or do I have to let it go? He dun wan me to be in a difficult position also. So thoughtful...so sweet
So many things...to consider.
Am I doing the right thing?
to meeting you...
I'm missing you
wonder wat will the reaction be? will it be awarkward? or will it be like our usual?
Having butterflies in my stomach. Will we be holding hands? will we hug? Will I be able to feel safe and secure in his arms?
Yes. he admitted it, after I guided him to ask that question. Such a blockhead.
Yet I am confuse. Half-half feeling. Dunno how to answer to Pst and CGL but yet happy that I am dating. he's shorter than me. Will I be able to accept?
Dun wan think anything else, dun wan talk abt the future. Juz see how things go first. Taking one step at a time.
I so much wan to plan a wedding, my own wedding. so much wan to go see furniture, so much wan go and view flats, so much wan go try wedding gowns, so much wan go food tasting, so much wan go hotel booking, so much wan go take photo shoots with him, so much wan go shop for our rings. Slowly bah.
I dunno how to tell others...we decided not to annouce yet, if they find out, we are not going to hide either. Got to start discussing how are we going to react infront of the other volunteers and infront of my colleagues? Got to know how to seperate work and personal. And the issue of the committee, can I still continue to take that committee or do I have to let it go? He dun wan me to be in a difficult position also. So thoughtful...so sweet
So many things...to consider.
Am I doing the right thing?
Friday, January 22, 2010
I wanted to...
I wanted to msg you those words...
but you have not officially asked me to.
somehow the feeling is overwhelming. Hopefully you can get the hints thru my sms. Dun wan to use those words yet until is "official" but I juz can't help showing my concern for you.
Last nite was hot chocolate and catching up on each other's day. And his words, "We are like seeing each other every other day..." makes my day
Yeap he let me drive the car back, and I can actually park WITHOUT poles now [ but left hand parking only. He said he's gonna teach me right hand parking =) ]
Every morning your sms with the word "dear" makes me smile and makes my day.
I think I am falling in love with you...
but you have not officially asked me to.
somehow the feeling is overwhelming. Hopefully you can get the hints thru my sms. Dun wan to use those words yet until is "official" but I juz can't help showing my concern for you.
Last nite was hot chocolate and catching up on each other's day. And his words, "We are like seeing each other every other day..." makes my day
Yeap he let me drive the car back, and I can actually park WITHOUT poles now [ but left hand parking only. He said he's gonna teach me right hand parking =) ]
Every morning your sms with the word "dear" makes me smile and makes my day.
I think I am falling in love with you...
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I'm kinda missing you now...
I miss you.
Whenever my phone lights up, be it phone call, be it sms, I was hoping that it is from him, telling me that he's thinking of me, or juz a msg with the word "dear" melts my heart and make my day.
Seeing him in 3 hours time.
Hopefully hot chocolate after that...some quality time together (and of cos letting me drive the car back home).
Juz chatting and finding out how each other's day has been.
I'm contented
Yes I think I'm falling in love...
is this meant to be...
Whenever my phone lights up, be it phone call, be it sms, I was hoping that it is from him, telling me that he's thinking of me, or juz a msg with the word "dear" melts my heart and make my day.
Seeing him in 3 hours time.
Hopefully hot chocolate after that...some quality time together (and of cos letting me drive the car back home).
Juz chatting and finding out how each other's day has been.
I'm contented
Yes I think I'm falling in love...
is this meant to be...
BearBear is Happy
Yah I finally get to watch "Avatar" after one long month of delay.
Thanks Dezrie for your patience and trying to fit my timing.
Very nice show. No wonder derzie kept encouraging me to watch. We caught the last show at Vivo last nite, a 3D one, which makes this show more exciting.
Dezrie has been very sweet, by sending me home after work, or even from office to the meeting place. Really appreciates it a lot. Of cos he's also very realistic, he wun also purposely come drive me but along the way, which I think is good enough. At least he did think of me...hee~
Seriously I am still thinking abt this issue, abt "us" whether should I or should I not go for it. As of now, we are not "official" yet, as in he did not ask me to be his girlfriend officially, yet he calls me "dear" as well as use the term "we", nope...no hands-holding, no kissing, no hugging or whatsoever...no gifts also, no flowers. Even as a photographer, he also did not take any profile of me.
Everyday he would sms me, and his sms definatly will have the word "dear" and if one day I din receive, I would feel uneasy also. Once, he came and drove me for a meeting and the sky was very dark, he asked me whether I have umbrella with me I told him no and he insist I take the one in the car. See how thoughtful he is. Even for driving, he did say if he drink, I will drive, if I drink, he will drive, thus we got to arrange beforehand. He trusts me with his car. So I not sure what he treat me as, a very good friend or his gf?
But if I go with him, I might face complications, I might not be able to take his RC anymore or I might even need to transfer out of this division.
I am so confuse what should I do? Cos we are not "official" yet we are a dating couple? I haven really call him "dear" or "darling" yet. But soon I might too...now we are using "I see You" a term from "Avatar" which meant I see through you inside your heart...who knows it might change to "I miss you" or even "I love you"
Should I juz asked him straight...
Thanks Dezrie for your patience and trying to fit my timing.
Very nice show. No wonder derzie kept encouraging me to watch. We caught the last show at Vivo last nite, a 3D one, which makes this show more exciting.
Dezrie has been very sweet, by sending me home after work, or even from office to the meeting place. Really appreciates it a lot. Of cos he's also very realistic, he wun also purposely come drive me but along the way, which I think is good enough. At least he did think of me...hee~
Seriously I am still thinking abt this issue, abt "us" whether should I or should I not go for it. As of now, we are not "official" yet, as in he did not ask me to be his girlfriend officially, yet he calls me "dear" as well as use the term "we", nope...no hands-holding, no kissing, no hugging or whatsoever...no gifts also, no flowers. Even as a photographer, he also did not take any profile of me.
Everyday he would sms me, and his sms definatly will have the word "dear" and if one day I din receive, I would feel uneasy also. Once, he came and drove me for a meeting and the sky was very dark, he asked me whether I have umbrella with me I told him no and he insist I take the one in the car. See how thoughtful he is. Even for driving, he did say if he drink, I will drive, if I drink, he will drive, thus we got to arrange beforehand. He trusts me with his car. So I not sure what he treat me as, a very good friend or his gf?
But if I go with him, I might face complications, I might not be able to take his RC anymore or I might even need to transfer out of this division.
I am so confuse what should I do? Cos we are not "official" yet we are a dating couple? I haven really call him "dear" or "darling" yet. But soon I might too...now we are using "I see You" a term from "Avatar" which meant I see through you inside your heart...who knows it might change to "I miss you" or even "I love you"
Should I juz asked him straight...
Monday, January 18, 2010
NE CDD Staff Retreat
We had our Staff retreat at *gasps*....Jurong Bird Park!!! *tweet tweet tweet*
First time the whole NE came together for a combined retreat. Pretty interesting, wun say make new friends cos we pretty much stick to the same group but at least caught a glimps of who's in NE.
Played game, talks, sharing session, walk the park is pretty much wat we did.
I am so dead tired, yet I still got to go back office and stayed until 10.30pm (I had to reach at 7.45am) while everyone can go home. And like cannot claim off... haiz is like that I guess ....@#$%^&* that wat you get when you are deemed to be "unrespectful" to your supervisior which is NOT entirely my fault.
SO here I am sitting in office and blogging and my mind is not thinking anything. Juz keep staring at the computer until time up I guess.
Highlight of the programme should be the photo session with a "special guest" A Littlest Penguin. So cutesy... I will try to upload the pix later...since my camera is total dead.
How I wish that someone else can come and drive me home...kept hinting to him but he dun get it. Either he pretend not to get the hint or he is a total blockhead. Well... or maybe... he's only treating me as a normal fried? that why I say I dun wan put my hopes too high up yet...
First time the whole NE came together for a combined retreat. Pretty interesting, wun say make new friends cos we pretty much stick to the same group but at least caught a glimps of who's in NE.
Played game, talks, sharing session, walk the park is pretty much wat we did.
I am so dead tired, yet I still got to go back office and stayed until 10.30pm (I had to reach at 7.45am) while everyone can go home. And like cannot claim off... haiz is like that I guess ....@#$%^&* that wat you get when you are deemed to be "unrespectful" to your supervisior which is NOT entirely my fault.
SO here I am sitting in office and blogging and my mind is not thinking anything. Juz keep staring at the computer until time up I guess.
Highlight of the programme should be the photo session with a "special guest" A Littlest Penguin. So cutesy... I will try to upload the pix later...since my camera is total dead.
How I wish that someone else can come and drive me home...kept hinting to him but he dun get it. Either he pretend not to get the hint or he is a total blockhead. Well... or maybe... he's only treating me as a normal fried? that why I say I dun wan put my hopes too high up yet...
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Is it or Is it not?
I really dunno anymore.
Am I or am I not, falling for this someone else, who is always so sweet and so gentle and so patient with me.
He has been picking me up most of the time, even at places so out of the way. He tried to fit his timing to mine and yet he's not so possesive but more to realistic.
Of cos if is along the way and within the timing he dun mind, but if he's busy or wat, he doesn't pick me up or he will ask whether need to come fetch me. But usually I will tell him no need. Dun wan to overtax him plus are are still not a "couple" yet.
Talking abt movie, we keep delaying the movie "Avatar" but now he seriously dun wan to delay any longer, as long as we got suitable timing, he juz go ahead and book and he say, anything as long as I am happy. So sweet rite?
But I can foresee complications. At work, at church...
So I really dunno dunno wat should I do. Continue or stop? Dun wan to lead him so far on also... haiz
Am I or am I not, falling for this someone else, who is always so sweet and so gentle and so patient with me.
He has been picking me up most of the time, even at places so out of the way. He tried to fit his timing to mine and yet he's not so possesive but more to realistic.
Of cos if is along the way and within the timing he dun mind, but if he's busy or wat, he doesn't pick me up or he will ask whether need to come fetch me. But usually I will tell him no need. Dun wan to overtax him plus are are still not a "couple" yet.
Talking abt movie, we keep delaying the movie "Avatar" but now he seriously dun wan to delay any longer, as long as we got suitable timing, he juz go ahead and book and he say, anything as long as I am happy. So sweet rite?
But I can foresee complications. At work, at church...
So I really dunno dunno wat should I do. Continue or stop? Dun wan to lead him so far on also... haiz
Good News
Yupz, I juz wan to annouce as of 14 Jan 2010, I CAN finally ....DRIVE a car!
I know this post is abt 3 days late, cos I was too busy to blog. 14 Jan also Gaius birthday. SO is a double celebration, though I do so much want go out with that someone else. But well...birthday is birthday plus jer and jen is also going, i juz go lor. They picked me up at HQ as I was having a late meeting then we proceed to Geylang for Dim Sum. I got a Durian Birthday cake for Gaius cos I know he loves durians. Is a joyous day for him lah. As for me...I juz try to be happy lor.
Ok, let me recap wat happen during the TP test. Everytihng was ok until vertical parking, tester asked me why do I have to keep checking when is a carpark where there is no other cars, I juz replied him "safety check" Then at paralled parking, I was going to check and before I can check, he scolded me and say paralled should check why I din check. I juz kept quiet. 4points. ok nvm nvm. Out on the road, nothing much happen but points was taken off for insufficient aceleration as well as abrupt change of lanes. Haha. BUT I did not go the full route, so I was like thinking "oh man I am bound to fail again" until when I drove back to the centre, at the front porch, the instructor suddenly ask me to stop. I was like shocked but stepped on the brake. He was like, if I had go on further I would have to retake test again cos I would have strike the curb and is immediate failure! Confusing eh. So when I went to the tester's room, I was praying very hard, and he din not help me much, he juz ask me wat make me think I will fail? I told him abt the safety check and he also told me abt the curb side stopping at the porch HOWEVER, he congrats me when he passed me the paper...I actually PASSED!!! I was so shocked and I cried. I could not believe it. I am officially a driver now! I could not stop thanking him. So yupz, I PASSED with 14 points! But it doesn't matter, I still PASSED. YAY!!!
16 Jan 2010. Caiyun wedding. Met up with EH and went for the wedding. Did something stupid which only me and EH knows. hahaha I dun think I wan say it here also lah. So is juz two of us knows. hahaha. Very happy for her, she finally found someone she can settle down with. Jia You Caiyun jie!!! Was suppse to meet dez to go out, but last minute got dinner with aunt and cousin, so I told him that I can only meet him later which he was very sweet to say ok. Had Korean food at Chinatown. Then later dessert as well as shopped at OG. Dez picked me up at chinatown and we head towards MS. Helped him chose a shirt and pants for the CNY, I think I got good taste and he does look goood with my choices. Haha. And better still, the prices are already so cheap and we get further discounts we dunno why, so all in all, he saved quite a lot. hehe. Thanks to me, his lucky star. Then we head towards Kallang Mac for Hot chocolate. And wat came next was the best words said of the whole day...do I wan to drive myself home? I was like...shocked and of cos I took up the offer and actually DROVE myself home from Kallang stadium to Potong Pasir, car and person safe and sound. Dez was so proud of me. I was so happy. I can DRIVE. YAY. Thank you Dez for trusting me. =) *mauckz**hugz*
That is why I am so happy today. Hot chocolate and driving makes a good combi!!!
I know this post is abt 3 days late, cos I was too busy to blog. 14 Jan also Gaius birthday. SO is a double celebration, though I do so much want go out with that someone else. But well...birthday is birthday plus jer and jen is also going, i juz go lor. They picked me up at HQ as I was having a late meeting then we proceed to Geylang for Dim Sum. I got a Durian Birthday cake for Gaius cos I know he loves durians. Is a joyous day for him lah. As for me...I juz try to be happy lor.
Ok, let me recap wat happen during the TP test. Everytihng was ok until vertical parking, tester asked me why do I have to keep checking when is a carpark where there is no other cars, I juz replied him "safety check" Then at paralled parking, I was going to check and before I can check, he scolded me and say paralled should check why I din check. I juz kept quiet. 4points. ok nvm nvm. Out on the road, nothing much happen but points was taken off for insufficient aceleration as well as abrupt change of lanes. Haha. BUT I did not go the full route, so I was like thinking "oh man I am bound to fail again" until when I drove back to the centre, at the front porch, the instructor suddenly ask me to stop. I was like shocked but stepped on the brake. He was like, if I had go on further I would have to retake test again cos I would have strike the curb and is immediate failure! Confusing eh. So when I went to the tester's room, I was praying very hard, and he din not help me much, he juz ask me wat make me think I will fail? I told him abt the safety check and he also told me abt the curb side stopping at the porch HOWEVER, he congrats me when he passed me the paper...I actually PASSED!!! I was so shocked and I cried. I could not believe it. I am officially a driver now! I could not stop thanking him. So yupz, I PASSED with 14 points! But it doesn't matter, I still PASSED. YAY!!!
16 Jan 2010. Caiyun wedding. Met up with EH and went for the wedding. Did something stupid which only me and EH knows. hahaha I dun think I wan say it here also lah. So is juz two of us knows. hahaha. Very happy for her, she finally found someone she can settle down with. Jia You Caiyun jie!!! Was suppse to meet dez to go out, but last minute got dinner with aunt and cousin, so I told him that I can only meet him later which he was very sweet to say ok. Had Korean food at Chinatown. Then later dessert as well as shopped at OG. Dez picked me up at chinatown and we head towards MS. Helped him chose a shirt and pants for the CNY, I think I got good taste and he does look goood with my choices. Haha. And better still, the prices are already so cheap and we get further discounts we dunno why, so all in all, he saved quite a lot. hehe. Thanks to me, his lucky star. Then we head towards Kallang Mac for Hot chocolate. And wat came next was the best words said of the whole day...do I wan to drive myself home? I was like...shocked and of cos I took up the offer and actually DROVE myself home from Kallang stadium to Potong Pasir, car and person safe and sound. Dez was so proud of me. I was so happy. I can DRIVE. YAY. Thank you Dez for trusting me. =) *mauckz**hugz*
That is why I am so happy today. Hot chocolate and driving makes a good combi!!!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Juz another Day
A day juz for myself
Today is Tuesday, is also my OFF day. FINALLY! From now on, I will stick by WAT I have to do only. No more extra work. I dun wan to do extra anymore. Actually I dun mind doing, I believe in sowing and reaping. BUT ever since *B* came in...things changed. YES and is TIME I move on to greener pasture.
Lunch with sweetie at Plaza Ichiban. Miss her loads. Enjoyed my fellowship with her. We hardly got time to catch up. But is good to catch up no matter is it over lunch or high tea or dinner or supper. I really appreciate this fellowship. Thank You sweetie for having lunch with me.
Went for driving. Two more days to the test date, I am excited yet scare but I know I can do well. I have confidence I have faith.
Recently, I think I am very blessed recently. There is this someone else who always drive me home. I am not expecting much, and I dun wan to expect anything yet. I am still healing. I need to heal before anything happens, if not is not going to be fair to that someone else. I also dunno wat I can do. I do want go out and expand my social circle, know more friends, give myself more choices. I muz admit, I think and I can feel he does have some interest in me but he's such a blockhead. Haven dated before, dunno how to woo a girl, except to drive her home every time... hmmm can consider that action to be kinda sweet, or nvr say anything juz pop by down to make sure he drives her back, calls it a surprise. Still flowers and chocolates would be nice. well prob not at this stage. We haven really "official" yet but we still go out on dates. He is still trying to work hard to build up his career, let that be his priority bah. My point is I do wan my guy to have a stable career so that he can support a family. I dun mind looks dun mind height juz mind his charecter as well as his career. Give time, time will tell whether will anything good come out of this.
I am still hesitating, still thinking...IS he THE one?
Today is Tuesday, is also my OFF day. FINALLY! From now on, I will stick by WAT I have to do only. No more extra work. I dun wan to do extra anymore. Actually I dun mind doing, I believe in sowing and reaping. BUT ever since *B* came in...things changed. YES and is TIME I move on to greener pasture.
Lunch with sweetie at Plaza Ichiban. Miss her loads. Enjoyed my fellowship with her. We hardly got time to catch up. But is good to catch up no matter is it over lunch or high tea or dinner or supper. I really appreciate this fellowship. Thank You sweetie for having lunch with me.
Went for driving. Two more days to the test date, I am excited yet scare but I know I can do well. I have confidence I have faith.
Recently, I think I am very blessed recently. There is this someone else who always drive me home. I am not expecting much, and I dun wan to expect anything yet. I am still healing. I need to heal before anything happens, if not is not going to be fair to that someone else. I also dunno wat I can do. I do want go out and expand my social circle, know more friends, give myself more choices. I muz admit, I think and I can feel he does have some interest in me but he's such a blockhead. Haven dated before, dunno how to woo a girl, except to drive her home every time... hmmm can consider that action to be kinda sweet, or nvr say anything juz pop by down to make sure he drives her back, calls it a surprise. Still flowers and chocolates would be nice. well prob not at this stage. We haven really "official" yet but we still go out on dates. He is still trying to work hard to build up his career, let that be his priority bah. My point is I do wan my guy to have a stable career so that he can support a family. I dun mind looks dun mind height juz mind his charecter as well as his career. Give time, time will tell whether will anything good come out of this.
I am still hesitating, still thinking...IS he THE one?
Friday, January 8, 2010
Blogging to earn money...?
Prob not.
I know there are some very famous and infamous blogs out there. Prob, I juz wan my blog to be a blog? one that i can express myself...wat i am thinking wat am I doing.
Prob, this site WILL never be found out, cos I dun intend to give out the URL to any of my friends. Of cos is my blog, I do want to make it look nice, yet I still can't find any good blog skin, one that dun have errors when i execute. HTML is too complicated that I dunno how to read, so I dunno wat is the error.
I can't come up with any interesting or funny post, I can only express wat I am going thru or pen down wat is happening rite now to me, or to the society.
Currently I am trying to get my life back, yah to go out more often, as well as to find a job that pays me as good and to get the hell out of here. I have put on weight, which is a good sign, yes and I MUST lost those kilos to maintain my figure.
sometimes I find it hard to think of a specific topic, I juz write whatever comes into my mind.
recall the conversation I had with Princess the other night as Shoduko
she's rite and I guess God muz be reaffirming my decision thru her. One thing that strike me the most vivid "childish" exactly. Everyone tells me the same thing, he's juz plain childish. Yes, pple who dunno each other, from different walks of life (church, cg, outside friends, colleagues, instructor, secondary sch friends) all said the SAME THING, exactly the SAME words. And Princess was so glad that I was the one who broke up with him and not the other way round. How could I be such a fool, or prob love is juz blind. Yes, I was blinded but now I see. He's not only childish but insecure as well like wat Princess felt (same thing as wat my other non related group of friends felt) And I trust her cos I know God is with her and is using her to speak to me. I also think he is insecure and has unforgiveness in him. Good luck to you whatever you are, and I'm so glad you dun wan to talk to me or acknowledge me, prob when you see me, you gonna hide your head in the ground juz like an ostrich does(pea brains and big body, exactly the same: he has small head, short and fat and ugly) cos you are ashame, haha yes I shall now call you: Ostrich the Childish Jerk. hahaha. Yah and I shall be on my three inch high heels so that I can look DOWN on you.
Come talk to me only when you've grown up and have matured.
I know there are some very famous and infamous blogs out there. Prob, I juz wan my blog to be a blog? one that i can express myself...wat i am thinking wat am I doing.
Prob, this site WILL never be found out, cos I dun intend to give out the URL to any of my friends. Of cos is my blog, I do want to make it look nice, yet I still can't find any good blog skin, one that dun have errors when i execute. HTML is too complicated that I dunno how to read, so I dunno wat is the error.
I can't come up with any interesting or funny post, I can only express wat I am going thru or pen down wat is happening rite now to me, or to the society.
Currently I am trying to get my life back, yah to go out more often, as well as to find a job that pays me as good and to get the hell out of here. I have put on weight, which is a good sign, yes and I MUST lost those kilos to maintain my figure.
sometimes I find it hard to think of a specific topic, I juz write whatever comes into my mind.
recall the conversation I had with Princess the other night as Shoduko
she's rite and I guess God muz be reaffirming my decision thru her. One thing that strike me the most vivid "childish" exactly. Everyone tells me the same thing, he's juz plain childish. Yes, pple who dunno each other, from different walks of life (church, cg, outside friends, colleagues, instructor, secondary sch friends) all said the SAME THING, exactly the SAME words. And Princess was so glad that I was the one who broke up with him and not the other way round. How could I be such a fool, or prob love is juz blind. Yes, I was blinded but now I see. He's not only childish but insecure as well like wat Princess felt (same thing as wat my other non related group of friends felt) And I trust her cos I know God is with her and is using her to speak to me. I also think he is insecure and has unforgiveness in him. Good luck to you whatever you are, and I'm so glad you dun wan to talk to me or acknowledge me, prob when you see me, you gonna hide your head in the ground juz like an ostrich does(pea brains and big body, exactly the same: he has small head, short and fat and ugly) cos you are ashame, haha yes I shall now call you: Ostrich the Childish Jerk. hahaha. Yah and I shall be on my three inch high heels so that I can look DOWN on you.
Come talk to me only when you've grown up and have matured.
Did I do the right thing?
I have been applying for jobs and internal transfer.
Today the HR recruitment came out there is an opening for CS CDC (projects) for PAL 6. And...I applied for it. I emailed directly to HR and cc to my director, conveniently leaving s short note for her to tell her I wish to transfer out anda sk her to consider my request. And...guess wat? She actually replied me and say she support me and even cc to my scm and gcm. Stunned! but guess I also dieded lah. Now scm and gcm know, I lagi might not be able to get transfer out or maybe they more than happy to chase me out. Yah and my scm left the office without anyone knowing, guess she is pissed off with the email, if she had read it...oh well. Is my choice since she's the one who is keeping me on such low profile, dun allow me to do big projects...thus noone knows of my existance. With such a boss, how do I going to climb up the corporate ladder?
Anyway am hoping that I may get this new posting and get out of hell here!
I used to love here, love the people and love the job. But ever since the *Beep* came in, she messed up everything. She ruin my life, and she get boss at her side cos she can cry...wat the *Fish* Now, the only thing I can do now is to lie low and keep my mouth shut. Do only wat I HAVE to do and dun bother about anything else. YES,I am not going to be so kind-hearted and helpful anymore. I only need to do wat I need to do. Heck the rest...
Applied so many jobs, hopefully I may be able to get one soon. I dunno how much longer can I hold back before I errupt again...
Today the HR recruitment came out there is an opening for CS CDC (projects) for PAL 6. And...I applied for it. I emailed directly to HR and cc to my director, conveniently leaving s short note for her to tell her I wish to transfer out anda sk her to consider my request. And...guess wat? She actually replied me and say she support me and even cc to my scm and gcm. Stunned! but guess I also dieded lah. Now scm and gcm know, I lagi might not be able to get transfer out or maybe they more than happy to chase me out. Yah and my scm left the office without anyone knowing, guess she is pissed off with the email, if she had read it...oh well. Is my choice since she's the one who is keeping me on such low profile, dun allow me to do big projects...thus noone knows of my existance. With such a boss, how do I going to climb up the corporate ladder?
Anyway am hoping that I may get this new posting and get out of hell here!
I used to love here, love the people and love the job. But ever since the *Beep* came in, she messed up everything. She ruin my life, and she get boss at her side cos she can cry...wat the *Fish* Now, the only thing I can do now is to lie low and keep my mouth shut. Do only wat I HAVE to do and dun bother about anything else. YES,I am not going to be so kind-hearted and helpful anymore. I only need to do wat I need to do. Heck the rest...
Applied so many jobs, hopefully I may be able to get one soon. I dunno how much longer can I hold back before I errupt again...
Thursday, January 7, 2010
New Resolution coming to pass
One resolution is to go out and socialise more.
Yupz, I've been out these 2 days, Tue had dinner with my sec sch "gan di-di" at a coffee shop in Serangoon plus cheesecake and hot chocolate later one and Wed had dinner with Princess at Shodoku. Company her till her bee came and pick her up. Is good to be able to fellowship, and is nice catching up with her.
Planning to go Melburn during first week of March and already booked air tickets to bangkok for the last week of March. Com'on this is the only free time I have to travel. Wat to do?
Hopefully I can be able to visit as many countries as possible for this year round.
Thu on "A" shift, meaning I go office at 8.30am and leave at 1pm and then later dinner and movie with dez. At least got car. Fri is nite duty hopefully can go supper with KK also.
Oh one thing I hate abt guys is that when they wan ask you out, they give the excus you are busy, but when you finally say yes to go out, they last minute got things corpped up, somehow I am not trusting this guy anymore even though he is a SL. Wat a jerk.
I have signed up for French lessons!!! Yay!!!
Yupz, I've been out these 2 days, Tue had dinner with my sec sch "gan di-di" at a coffee shop in Serangoon plus cheesecake and hot chocolate later one and Wed had dinner with Princess at Shodoku. Company her till her bee came and pick her up. Is good to be able to fellowship, and is nice catching up with her.
Planning to go Melburn during first week of March and already booked air tickets to bangkok for the last week of March. Com'on this is the only free time I have to travel. Wat to do?
Hopefully I can be able to visit as many countries as possible for this year round.
Thu on "A" shift, meaning I go office at 8.30am and leave at 1pm and then later dinner and movie with dez. At least got car. Fri is nite duty hopefully can go supper with KK also.
Oh one thing I hate abt guys is that when they wan ask you out, they give the excus you are busy, but when you finally say yes to go out, they last minute got things corpped up, somehow I am not trusting this guy anymore even though he is a SL. Wat a jerk.
I have signed up for French lessons!!! Yay!!!
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
First driving lesson for 2010
Yupz I am still in one piece.
haha manage to drive myself form Kovan to ubi and from ubi back to Kovan and nothing happen. Not bad not bad I still can remember most of the things in the courses as well as on the road, except slope wasn't so well done. Kinda forgot to release the clutch and such... but overall, is still ok. I juz need practise. 4 more lessons until the actual day on 14Jan. Yah except I also forgot to look behind for cars while reversing for vertical parking, other than that my parallel parking was quite nicely done as well as the S-course and Crank course (the one that killed me during tset)
I think I am ready to go for the test again.
Pray for me ya?
haha manage to drive myself form Kovan to ubi and from ubi back to Kovan and nothing happen. Not bad not bad I still can remember most of the things in the courses as well as on the road, except slope wasn't so well done. Kinda forgot to release the clutch and such... but overall, is still ok. I juz need practise. 4 more lessons until the actual day on 14Jan. Yah except I also forgot to look behind for cars while reversing for vertical parking, other than that my parallel parking was quite nicely done as well as the S-course and Crank course (the one that killed me during tset)
I think I am ready to go for the test again.
Pray for me ya?
Monday, January 4, 2010
New Resolution
YES! I shall go out as often as I can.
Meet up with as many friends as I can.
I need to get my life back. I need to expand my social circle.
Is so sad that on tuesdays my off day, most of my friends can't meet up. Dunno why is everyone so busy on Tuesday ...haiz
I send out so many sms asking to meet up for dinner, many reply that they can't make it, or is that I am that unpopular? Sighz...
At times like this, I really wish I got someone with me, to company me.
Meet up with as many friends as I can.
I need to get my life back. I need to expand my social circle.
Is so sad that on tuesdays my off day, most of my friends can't meet up. Dunno why is everyone so busy on Tuesday ...haiz
I send out so many sms asking to meet up for dinner, many reply that they can't make it, or is that I am that unpopular? Sighz...
At times like this, I really wish I got someone with me, to company me.
Driving
Yay tmr going for driving again.
I took a one month break from driving after failing my first test.
Next test on the 14Jan. And I know I know I'm going to pass...I can feel it in my bones!
Can't wait to start driving, hopefully I can still remember how to feel the biting point...yupz I drive a manual...heehee. I miss my car...215
pple asking why am I taking manual when now is all auto car? but I feel is better to drive a manual so that next time can drive lorry or pick up mah, then go overseas if no auto car I can still drive. muahahaha
Driving is so fun.
I took a one month break from driving after failing my first test.
Next test on the 14Jan. And I know I know I'm going to pass...I can feel it in my bones!
Can't wait to start driving, hopefully I can still remember how to feel the biting point...yupz I drive a manual...heehee. I miss my car...215
pple asking why am I taking manual when now is all auto car? but I feel is better to drive a manual so that next time can drive lorry or pick up mah, then go overseas if no auto car I can still drive. muahahaha
Driving is so fun.
On the 4th Day of 2010...
Still the same.
Friends told me if I wan my 2010 to be happy to be good, I should have start off on a positive and happy note, which I tried, which is pretty hard, consider wat I've been thru and wat I'm feeling right now.
Dun be mistaken, I have a bunch of lovely friends and a wonderful family. But I juz felt lacking of something...yah... my partner? I know is nothing wrong being single, but somehow I still feel something is missing in my life or that someone took away a part of me and I felt a void. A sense of sadness and lonliness. I am trying hard to build back my life. To move on strongly, and I have succeed, not hundred percent but is getting somewhere...considering I've put on a bit of weight. Pple say if you are happy, you will put on weight (that why all married couples ballooned up after their wedding). I've learnt to let go part of it, but I am still holding on to some of it. I guess I will eventually let go slowly, bit by bit as I go out more often to socialise and get to know new pple. Yes and I think i am ready to go on dates again. Well juz dinner and movie, for some company and to know them better...no is not getting into relationship, is juz fellowship and building friendship. Last one was quite a rush rush, a vicious cycle, I should slow down, get to know each other better first, enjoy my life, before diving straight into it. And I shouldn't feel jealous or sad if I know of pple getting attached or married. I know my time will come, but is juz not now.
Friends told me if I wan my 2010 to be happy to be good, I should have start off on a positive and happy note, which I tried, which is pretty hard, consider wat I've been thru and wat I'm feeling right now.
Dun be mistaken, I have a bunch of lovely friends and a wonderful family. But I juz felt lacking of something...yah... my partner? I know is nothing wrong being single, but somehow I still feel something is missing in my life or that someone took away a part of me and I felt a void. A sense of sadness and lonliness. I am trying hard to build back my life. To move on strongly, and I have succeed, not hundred percent but is getting somewhere...considering I've put on a bit of weight. Pple say if you are happy, you will put on weight (that why all married couples ballooned up after their wedding). I've learnt to let go part of it, but I am still holding on to some of it. I guess I will eventually let go slowly, bit by bit as I go out more often to socialise and get to know new pple. Yes and I think i am ready to go on dates again. Well juz dinner and movie, for some company and to know them better...no is not getting into relationship, is juz fellowship and building friendship. Last one was quite a rush rush, a vicious cycle, I should slow down, get to know each other better first, enjoy my life, before diving straight into it. And I shouldn't feel jealous or sad if I know of pple getting attached or married. I know my time will come, but is juz not now.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Weddings
Sighz, I know I know.
Weddings should be joyous occassions. Wedding should be fun.
But why am I feeling so sad at weddings? Prob cos I really wan to find mr Right and settle down too...but with heartbreaks after heartbreaks, I am having doubts.
Dear God, I know You know the desires of my heart, I know You know how much I have sacrfice to serve You. You know what I have been thru in 2009. You have seen my sadness, hear my cries, collected my tears...but why God why hasn't wat I wanted come to pass? Is it because is not in Your will? I obey Lord, I hear you Lord, but is juz a reconciliation that I am asking. Why is it so hard? I have tried to shown Your love to the other party, to shown Your forgiveness and Your grace and Your mercy, but why, but why isn't there any response? Use me Lord, use me to do a work in that person's life. Use me to be Your light to show him Your will for His life. I keep seeing signs, signs of him but yet Lord why isn't there a response? Even juz a short sms of Happy New Year, there isn't any reply back? All I ask Lord, is to have this friend back. Wat is it that You want me to learn? Wat is it that you want to mould my charecter? Wat is that You wan me to grow? God, pls tell me the answer. All I want is a proper closure, God pls hear this plea from my Heart.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
Coming up, I have Caiyun's Wedding on the 16Jan and Kelvin's Wedding on the 17Jan. Back to Back...will there be more coming up? When will it be my turn?
Weddings should be joyous occassions. Wedding should be fun.
But why am I feeling so sad at weddings? Prob cos I really wan to find mr Right and settle down too...but with heartbreaks after heartbreaks, I am having doubts.
Dear God, I know You know the desires of my heart, I know You know how much I have sacrfice to serve You. You know what I have been thru in 2009. You have seen my sadness, hear my cries, collected my tears...but why God why hasn't wat I wanted come to pass? Is it because is not in Your will? I obey Lord, I hear you Lord, but is juz a reconciliation that I am asking. Why is it so hard? I have tried to shown Your love to the other party, to shown Your forgiveness and Your grace and Your mercy, but why, but why isn't there any response? Use me Lord, use me to do a work in that person's life. Use me to be Your light to show him Your will for His life. I keep seeing signs, signs of him but yet Lord why isn't there a response? Even juz a short sms of Happy New Year, there isn't any reply back? All I ask Lord, is to have this friend back. Wat is it that You want me to learn? Wat is it that you want to mould my charecter? Wat is that You wan me to grow? God, pls tell me the answer. All I want is a proper closure, God pls hear this plea from my Heart.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
Coming up, I have Caiyun's Wedding on the 16Jan and Kelvin's Wedding on the 17Jan. Back to Back...will there be more coming up? When will it be my turn?
Travel and New Skills
Hoping to be able to travel out of Singapore more often this year. To broaden my horizon, to gain knowledge and to make new friends. Short trips, Long trips I dun mind juz as long as I can get out of here. Places in mind:
Macau
Hong Kong
Shanghai
Batam
Kukup
KL
Australia
Japan
Taiwan
Dubai
Bangkok
Guangzhou
Beijing
Xi'an
so if anyone want to go anywhere in the above list, let me know, we can make arrangement. Or some other places not listed, I also dun mind going.
I know dez wan go Aussie or Kl, Jes wan go Aussie, Guangzhou, Bangkok, Ryz wan go Aussie, Ay wan go taiwan or kukup, batam, bintan, Ah Huat wan go Bangkok or Hong Kong, Long-ge wan go Hong Kong and Xi'an, Aunt wan go Beijing and Guangzhou.
I think I will really make a trip down to KL to visit my cousin and her son. Haven been to see them since she gave birth? I din even attend the one-month dinner...felt so guilty. I MUST I MUST go KL soooooonnnn.....any kakis???
How abt learning new skills or hobbies? I took driving in 2009 and pretty soon, I am going to get my liscense. I know I will I believe I will and I claim it in Jesus' name. What else should I learn? Few ides in mind:
Diving
Golf
Baking Skills
Ballroom Dancing
Motor Boat Driving
Canoeing 1* and 2*
Masters Degree
Photography
Photoshop
French Language
Spanish Language
Korean Language
Japanese Language
Thai Language
So many things, so little time. Yes I shall do it while I am still single and still young. So guys give me an idea wat should I learn?
I want live my life to the fullest, life is too precious and too short to be wasted.
Macau
Hong Kong
Shanghai
Batam
Kukup
KL
Australia
Japan
Taiwan
Dubai
Bangkok
Guangzhou
Beijing
Xi'an
so if anyone want to go anywhere in the above list, let me know, we can make arrangement. Or some other places not listed, I also dun mind going.
I know dez wan go Aussie or Kl, Jes wan go Aussie, Guangzhou, Bangkok, Ryz wan go Aussie, Ay wan go taiwan or kukup, batam, bintan, Ah Huat wan go Bangkok or Hong Kong, Long-ge wan go Hong Kong and Xi'an, Aunt wan go Beijing and Guangzhou.
I think I will really make a trip down to KL to visit my cousin and her son. Haven been to see them since she gave birth? I din even attend the one-month dinner...felt so guilty. I MUST I MUST go KL soooooonnnn.....any kakis???
How abt learning new skills or hobbies? I took driving in 2009 and pretty soon, I am going to get my liscense. I know I will I believe I will and I claim it in Jesus' name. What else should I learn? Few ides in mind:
Diving
Golf
Baking Skills
Ballroom Dancing
Motor Boat Driving
Canoeing 1* and 2*
Masters Degree
Photography
Photoshop
French Language
Spanish Language
Korean Language
Japanese Language
Thai Language
So many things, so little time. Yes I shall do it while I am still single and still young. So guys give me an idea wat should I learn?
I want live my life to the fullest, life is too precious and too short to be wasted.
Third Day of 2010
Still nothing much. Bored in office. Nothin to do. or Dun feel like doing anything.
not feeling so good I guess...this is wat you get for sleeping at 4am and waking at 7am this morning. Yupz was out with a bunch of lovely friends to KTV AFTER the NE YEC Getogether. Well the NE is all represented. Jes from Tampiness, Long-ge and Kenny (and maybe Ryz since he WAS from PLK a few years back) from Aljunied, me and dez from Pasir Ris-Punggol. Had roaring great fun and loads of laughters. Is good to laugh you know. Made you forgot your tiredness and sadness.
Well, grateful for them. Knowing wat a bad 2009 I had, but becos of them, I manage to pull thru to bring myself back to society again, all because of one boat trip to Kusu Island (or and the Raining part where the 3 of us are taking the boat...hmmm). Not to forgot another very impt person in my life, my gan-di di, KK, he was the one who patiently listen to me and encourage and supported me when I was at my lowest point. (I still remember the outing we had at the top of Central...)
Had my first duty of the year, Communion. Wasn't very good to wat I feel. Guess becos I wasn't prepared and I was very tired. But overall everything went ok (except the Communion din get to artist rm which was so strange)
Now stuck in office. No mood to do anything, dun feel like anything. Juz feel like sleeping.
SMARTER goals, yah I gotta start planning again:
1) finish the bible within the year
2) pass my driving (no rain pls)
3) lost weight (another 3kg would be great)
4) widen my social circle, get to know more friends (and hopefully find my Mr Right, yupz I wun say No to dates anymore)
5) Control my temper esp in office (talk less and complain less - God will judge and pple will decide).
6) get a new job, or transfer out, or get promoted. (I will opt for new job though)
7) train up more leaders (I have so many potential ldrs in my team, I want to train them up)
8) more patience with my family (yes I can be quite a brat at home)
9) spend more time with my grandparents
10) be healthy and happy (forgive and forget...)
11) Learn a new Skill? (Diving or Golfing?)
12) Travel Overseas more often (go on exchange programme)
13) Attend more BIG functions by BIG companies (VIP function or invited function would be nice)
14) Clear my debts (whatever I owe the banks) and cut away credit cards spending
15) Reconciliation with a ...friend
that's all the list for now.
Do I find them specific? think so... measurable? ya... Action plan? gotta start thinking... realistic? ya... time frame? ya.... expectation management? within expectation ... revelation? gotta start praying ....
not feeling so good I guess...this is wat you get for sleeping at 4am and waking at 7am this morning. Yupz was out with a bunch of lovely friends to KTV AFTER the NE YEC Getogether. Well the NE is all represented. Jes from Tampiness, Long-ge and Kenny (and maybe Ryz since he WAS from PLK a few years back) from Aljunied, me and dez from Pasir Ris-Punggol. Had roaring great fun and loads of laughters. Is good to laugh you know. Made you forgot your tiredness and sadness.
Well, grateful for them. Knowing wat a bad 2009 I had, but becos of them, I manage to pull thru to bring myself back to society again, all because of one boat trip to Kusu Island (or and the Raining part where the 3 of us are taking the boat...hmmm). Not to forgot another very impt person in my life, my gan-di di, KK, he was the one who patiently listen to me and encourage and supported me when I was at my lowest point. (I still remember the outing we had at the top of Central...)
Had my first duty of the year, Communion. Wasn't very good to wat I feel. Guess becos I wasn't prepared and I was very tired. But overall everything went ok (except the Communion din get to artist rm which was so strange)
Now stuck in office. No mood to do anything, dun feel like anything. Juz feel like sleeping.
SMARTER goals, yah I gotta start planning again:
1) finish the bible within the year
2) pass my driving (no rain pls)
3) lost weight (another 3kg would be great)
4) widen my social circle, get to know more friends (and hopefully find my Mr Right, yupz I wun say No to dates anymore)
5) Control my temper esp in office (talk less and complain less - God will judge and pple will decide).
6) get a new job, or transfer out, or get promoted. (I will opt for new job though)
7) train up more leaders (I have so many potential ldrs in my team, I want to train them up)
8) more patience with my family (yes I can be quite a brat at home)
9) spend more time with my grandparents
10) be healthy and happy (forgive and forget...)
11) Learn a new Skill? (Diving or Golfing?)
12) Travel Overseas more often (go on exchange programme)
13) Attend more BIG functions by BIG companies (VIP function or invited function would be nice)
14) Clear my debts (whatever I owe the banks) and cut away credit cards spending
15) Reconciliation with a ...friend
that's all the list for now.
Do I find them specific? think so... measurable? ya... Action plan? gotta start thinking... realistic? ya... time frame? ya.... expectation management? within expectation ... revelation? gotta start praying ....
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Blog Skin
Second Day of the New Year...
still lazing around... trying to figure how to change my blog skin.
YEC NE Get-together later at 3pm. I think is gonna be fun. Get to see pple from the other YECs. Hopefully can make some new friends...of cos...find my Mr Right? haha.
Yah that is one of my resolution for this 2010. Really want find someone to settle down. Is my desire, but I know, it takes time to really find the right one. I dun wan anymore heartbreaks for 2010. Thus I muz find carefully, seeking for God's wisdom and guidenace. I know..he's out there somewhere, waiting too. of cos to get my driving lesson. Second test on 14Jan2010. Pray for me ya? Good weather and kind tester...
Oh yes...I want to find a blog skin... any good site?
NO more bitching abt my work life...cos I know what I should do. Keep quiet is my virtue now. Knowing God will give me the justice and righteousness that I deserve.
still lazing around... trying to figure how to change my blog skin.
YEC NE Get-together later at 3pm. I think is gonna be fun. Get to see pple from the other YECs. Hopefully can make some new friends...of cos...find my Mr Right? haha.
Yah that is one of my resolution for this 2010. Really want find someone to settle down. Is my desire, but I know, it takes time to really find the right one. I dun wan anymore heartbreaks for 2010. Thus I muz find carefully, seeking for God's wisdom and guidenace. I know..he's out there somewhere, waiting too. of cos to get my driving lesson. Second test on 14Jan2010. Pray for me ya? Good weather and kind tester...
Oh yes...I want to find a blog skin... any good site?
NO more bitching abt my work life...cos I know what I should do. Keep quiet is my virtue now. Knowing God will give me the justice and righteousness that I deserve.
Friday, January 1, 2010
First Post of theYear
Goodbye 2009 and helooo 2010, new year, new blog.
yes I've decided to abandon my other blog at multiply...too many bad and sad memories over there, thus I probably not going to blog there anymore...juz occassionally.
I will be using this from now, but unfortunately dun really like the user name...all those i wanted got taken...oh well... but is ok.
With my nick, prob noone gonna guess is me.
So tired after division countdown, reach home only close to 3.30am today. Was working from 12pm on eve...Had supper with a friend, the first person to spend 2010 with me or should say send off 2009 and welcome 2010 with me? yah lah, we were at the same countdown event mah.
Slept a while, got phonecallSSS to go over grandma's place for satay steamboat lunch...at 1030am??? com'on lunch is at 12pm for me...gotta bit irritated lah...but still got to wake up and wash up...slack a while....and head over grandma's place and reach at ....tadaaaa....12pm? haha see my timing juzt nice. Finish steamboat, decided to head for home since my eyes are closing. Sis got a crazy idea to get some pampering and wanted to do manicure, so I juzt follow and did pedicure. Like my matted purple toes for now...ha. Went home and sleep... and woke up at....9pm??? Can you believe it? This is how tired I was.
Yes I had no proper rest since Chirstmas eve.
Enough for this first post of the year....more to come...
Once again, Happy New Year eveyone!!!
yes I've decided to abandon my other blog at multiply...too many bad and sad memories over there, thus I probably not going to blog there anymore...juz occassionally.
I will be using this from now, but unfortunately dun really like the user name...all those i wanted got taken...oh well... but is ok.
With my nick, prob noone gonna guess is me.
So tired after division countdown, reach home only close to 3.30am today. Was working from 12pm on eve...Had supper with a friend, the first person to spend 2010 with me or should say send off 2009 and welcome 2010 with me? yah lah, we were at the same countdown event mah.
Slept a while, got phonecallSSS to go over grandma's place for satay steamboat lunch...at 1030am??? com'on lunch is at 12pm for me...gotta bit irritated lah...but still got to wake up and wash up...slack a while....and head over grandma's place and reach at ....tadaaaa....12pm? haha see my timing juzt nice. Finish steamboat, decided to head for home since my eyes are closing. Sis got a crazy idea to get some pampering and wanted to do manicure, so I juzt follow and did pedicure. Like my matted purple toes for now...ha. Went home and sleep... and woke up at....9pm??? Can you believe it? This is how tired I was.
Yes I had no proper rest since Chirstmas eve.
Enough for this first post of the year....more to come...
Once again, Happy New Year eveyone!!!
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