Weddings

Sighz, I know I know.

Weddings should be joyous occassions. Wedding should be fun.

But why am I feeling so sad at weddings? Prob cos I really wan to find mr Right and settle down too...but with heartbreaks after heartbreaks, I am having doubts.

Dear God, I know You know the desires of my heart, I know You know how much I have sacrfice to serve You. You know what I have been thru in 2009. You have seen my sadness, hear my cries, collected my tears...but why God why hasn't wat I wanted come to pass? Is it because is not in Your will? I obey Lord, I hear you Lord, but is juz a reconciliation that I am asking. Why is it so hard? I have tried to shown Your love to the other party, to shown Your forgiveness and Your grace and Your mercy, but why, but why isn't there any response? Use me Lord, use me to do a work in that person's life. Use me to be Your light to show him Your will for His life. I keep seeing signs, signs of him but yet Lord why isn't there a response? Even juz a short sms of Happy New Year, there isn't any reply back? All I ask Lord, is to have this friend back. Wat is it that You want me to learn? Wat is it that you want to mould my charecter? Wat is that You wan me to grow? God, pls tell me the answer. All I want is a proper closure, God pls hear this plea from my Heart.

In Jesus' name, Amen.

Coming up, I have Caiyun's Wedding on the 16Jan and Kelvin's Wedding on the 17Jan. Back to Back...will there be more coming up? When will it be my turn?