Still the same.
Friends told me if I wan my 2010 to be happy to be good, I should have start off on a positive and happy note, which I tried, which is pretty hard, consider wat I've been thru and wat I'm feeling right now.
Dun be mistaken, I have a bunch of lovely friends and a wonderful family. But I juz felt lacking of something...yah... my partner? I know is nothing wrong being single, but somehow I still feel something is missing in my life or that someone took away a part of me and I felt a void. A sense of sadness and lonliness. I am trying hard to build back my life. To move on strongly, and I have succeed, not hundred percent but is getting somewhere...considering I've put on a bit of weight. Pple say if you are happy, you will put on weight (that why all married couples ballooned up after their wedding). I've learnt to let go part of it, but I am still holding on to some of it. I guess I will eventually let go slowly, bit by bit as I go out more often to socialise and get to know new pple. Yes and I think i am ready to go on dates again. Well juz dinner and movie, for some company and to know them better...no is not getting into relationship, is juz fellowship and building friendship. Last one was quite a rush rush, a vicious cycle, I should slow down, get to know each other better first, enjoy my life, before diving straight into it. And I shouldn't feel jealous or sad if I know of pple getting attached or married. I know my time will come, but is juz not now.
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